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The Dalai Lama's tweet for today is actually: "As you develop a more compassionate attitude, you feel less anxiety, while your determination and self-confidence increase."
I'm not sure what his evidence-base is for that statement, but I like the sentiment!
Sorry to hear that the saga of the meds continues,but glad to hear that you are being positive about sticking with it If you must.
For what it is worth my Easter was busy! Mostly with Church stuff, as well as shopping and food prep:
Good Friday - up early (much like a normal work day) and off to Holy Week prayers & breakfast. Then Mrs BD and I went to Castle Donington to do a couple of readings for their walk of witness. [not many people about to actually see or hear our efforts, which was a bit disappointing]
Holy Saturday - The two of us were leading the prayers, so again up and out earlier to be ready for it. I had done a lot of preparation for this, making a model tomb, and "stones" to be used to think about and actually write prayers on. Mrs BD had another thing to go and do (Healing On The Streets) and I helped proof read the songs on the projector for Sunday. Later on we went back to help set out a room for a communion breakfast.
Easter Day - not quite so early a start, Communion breakfast, clearing up afterwards, singing before the morning service as people came in, After the service, home for lunch with a couple of family visitors, wash up, rest and surprise surprise, back for the evening service.
Today we rest!
It was gradual and is still ongoing.
I went to Sunday School (Methodist) as a boy, but it did not take.Most of my life I have considered myself as a "don't know" an agnostic, and there is still much of the agnostic about me now.
However following the premature birth of our second son (30 years ago), Mrs BD started going to the Baptist Church.At her suggestion I started singing in what was then the music group, and I found that singing had a strong spiritual influence on me - I would say then that 'I am a believer when I sing'.
A few years ago I decided to try something, and I made a choice to (try to) believe in God in general, and in the Christian take on God in particular. Almost as soon as I had made this decision I found that I was now writing spiritual poems and songs.
But I was still resisting actual commitment, I was not prepared to call myself a Christian.
Then one morning I imagined myself looking down over the edge of a cliff. This is something that I sometimes do which really scares me as I imagine myself falling to my death.This time however I imagined that I was looking down on the dark familiar streets of a town, but if I looked up I was looking along a path by a golden river leading to a city of light and peace.The thought was if I took a step would I find myself falling to my death in the dark streets or starting on the long path towards the city of God?I did not feel ready to take that step.
Then I was invited to a meeting where I knew that I would be asked if I was prepared to be baptised. I had my answer ready which was Not Yet.But before that meeting I went to the Baptist Assembly. Near the end there was a call to put up your hand if you wanted to commit to Jesus.To my surprise my hand went up. (I thought that it was better trained than that!)
So when I went to the meeting I told them what had happened, how I had expected to be saying that I was not ready, how I still did not feel ready, but I was now prepared to take the next step on my journey.
So I was Baptised on July 4th 2010.And recently I was elected as one of the deacons
Churchs vary a lot, but our Church has been called The Church where the strange people go.
That's OK! Take your time.
As you can see - Sometimes I post more than a couple of words.
Aww SOLB, I'm sorry to hear today's not a good day. I've just made tea, but don't have any biscuits. I might consider giving you the last piece of my mum's shortbread, it is amazing.
I think you are brave and strong, criticism or feelings won't change that. You might not feel it, but if there's one thing I know about you it's that you've got guts girl! Sometimes it's about surviving right here and now rather progress. You can't make progress if you're dead!
Awesome news SOLB, good job!
I'm glad you're feeling happier .
Ooh, can I get in on the FB drivel?
Curly, I can't believe you're calling youself weak-willed when you A) Go running Go running twice in one day C) And then possibly go the gym and do weights! That's hardcore! I struggle to even motivate myself to go for a run.
If anyone's interested, there's an inquiry into the diagnosis of schizophrenia and anyone can have their say: Schizophrenia Inquiry
I hope everyone's had a good weekend.
Hmm SOLB, that's tough about therapy. But I think you're the one who has the make the call at the end of the day. You're the one who'll know when it's too much and when it's ok. After all, you keep yourself going between sessions. So you must be coping in some way, right? Even if it doesn't feel like it.
I suppose it's also about just talking about it and what you need. I have everything faith in you that you know what the right thing for you is.
As for diagnosis...ugh, just why?
Oh no, I was on about the risk I was saying you can do it!
You're right about being hopeful, I suppose your therapist is just trying to keep you safe. But it's like in that well-known inspirational film, The Halls of Montezuma (WWII, the US Marines invade a Japanese isalnd), "Hope is the mother of mankind". Cheesey but true!
This is one of the many issues I have with diagnosis, where (and tell me if I'm wrong) the professionals seem more interested in it than you are. You just seem to want suffer less. As for skiving off...skiving is bad but if the meeting is going to cause you're stress you have to look after yourself. Also, they can't detain for not going to a meeting. I'm sure they can't.