Mental illness and running

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I have a cat curled up asleep on,my lap. He is purring so loudly I had to turn up strictly.

Solb, nightmares can be really tiring. But it really is the sign that your brain is processing stuff rather than just hiding it away.

Solb

That's what Vicky said by eck, she thinks its a good thing ... I just want them to stop now, though I'm sure I'll be glad once its over

[Deleted User]

Do you try to stop the nightmares or allow them to run their course?

[Deleted User]

It's hard when the time you are meant to be resting and recharging is exhausting, though ((hug)) x

[Deleted User]

It is! It is harder when you are meant to be resting and life doesn't let you.

Solb

I can't wake from these ones, they run til about 4 then I wake up and try to stay awake.

Hopefully you can have a rest after Miss By Eck's birthday is done

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I used to be plagued dreadfully. I mean to the point j refused to go to sleep. Then someone suggested trying to trigger and control the direction they take rather than stopping them and then not daring to sleep

Solb

I don't know how to do that. These are all very literal retrospective ones, not sure I could re-write history I don't feel like I have a voice in the nightmare it's very much out of my control. Might be worth having a go though, I'll Google it by eck

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Morning people. It is a moment of calm in the middle of a chaotic day. But I do have ime to hide all the cake wrappers and replace the cakes that appear to have gone missing.

Solb

Happy Birthday Miss By Eck

Hope it all goes well today and that there are a few pockets of calm to be found

Solb

I feel magically better after a massive cup of coffee and a shower  
I have SCaz visiting today, might see if she fancies a walk cos the sun is shining, then I'm having a spotty dog hug tonight.

Tomorrow is the beginning of new start number 80 billion squillion and 9 I'm plannig on starting a training plan (details to be finalised and spiteful asthma dependent) to take me to the Salisbury 10 in March (seems ridiculous that I need a training plan to get up to 10 but I've not done more than 3ish so far)  and gym on alternates.

Back to three meals with the OCD stuff and it's our last horrible review session in psychotherapy on Monday before we go back to normal

I'm raring to go with my new positive start from tomorrow now that I've had some down time

How are you feeling Bear? Excellent slobbing yesterday  

XFR Bear

I'm okay, woken up late but feeling more energetic now

 

for fresh starts

XFR Bear

Just heard the tube guys didn't finish - there were people messing about on one of the tracks causing massive delays and them running out of trains

[Deleted User]

Aw, sorry to hear they didn't make it, Bear

Hope the birthday day is going well, By Eck

Good luck with the new plan, SOLB

Because I couldn't drink on our wedding anniversary last month, we have declared today an honorary celebration. We have champagne

XFR Bear

Aw that's a nice idea Frodo, enjoy your bubbles

XFR Bear

The guys in question have held the world record so it's not quite as much of a disappointment - the second crew had a newbie with them so disappointing for him

Solb

*hic* well as everyone is celebrating *slurps some of Frodo's champagne and samples one of Miss by Ecks cupcakes* 

XFR Bear

oooh cupcakes

 

evening SOLB, how are you lovely?

Solb

Good thank you, SCaz has just left 

I'm considering going to visit Chicken and going to the shop to see if they sell water filters cos I've run out 

[Deleted User]

*yawns and snuggles down on the sofa next to Solb and bear*

Solb

*cuddles by eck* 

[Deleted User]

Cheers Solb. Today is tinged with just a touch of difficulty

Solb

Wanna talk about it or do you just need a big cuddle and to know we're here if you need us? X

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Big hug Solb please. It's not really the kind of thing I can post on here without going into too much detail and I don't think that it is appropriate.

Solb

It's absolutely fine if you want to honey but I think I probably know what you are talking about. Massive smassive mega cuddle on it's way

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Thank you so much babe. It's a bit hard to talk to anyone about it really, and especially my family.

Solb

I don't think you need to talk about it darling just know that we care.

Maybe you will feel like discussing it with Alice when you see her next

XFR Bear

((( by 'eck )))

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Thank you guys.

Solb

How did it go today? Did Miss By Eck have fun?