For those of you in the very 'weight conscious' category of runners, I have an area for discussion that I'd be very interested to hear what people's thoughts are...
I'm currently recovering (or, at least, trying to recover) from an eating disorder. As I'm a runner too, and was before the food issues became big issues, this is an area I'm really struggling to get a hold on. No matter what I do, the running always always always turns into something that fuels my obsession with calories and weight loss. It started off being something I enjoyed for the health and fitness benefits, but has, for the past seven years, been a source of calorie-ridding, fat-burning, control-keeping form of activity (only keeping my eating disorder thoughts and behaviours going strong).
My issue is, do I stop running altogether in order to get better? I know this option needs to be seriously considered. I just don't want to stop exercising because I will feel rubbish. I've tried cutting my runs down to 3 to three times a week for no longer than 45 minutes a time, so I don't get too obsessed. But I'm still no better in the head for it!
For those of you who have had similar issues, how do you get out of a situation like this?! Is it a case of giving up exercise?