First of all, this is a long one so I thank you in advance for taking time to read my pathetic plead for help...
I was just hoping someone could read between the lines and pick up the key points that I'm unable to see and point me to the right direction.
I have totally lost my judgement and ability to decide what I should do....I'm unable to decide what kind of marathon training plan would suit me the best because my running has been so inconsistent and crammed in between my two jobs I've started to almost hate it... Also I've become slower and slower (I run slower than I did when I first started) so I've probably been trying to do more than I'm capable of.
Anyway, history and more:
- Running 5.5 years
- Completed 4 marathons (05/2009, 09/2010 & 2x 04/2011)
- Marathon PB 4:43. Worst 5:12
- Weekly mileage since January 2012: 25 - 45 per week.
- Trained for Barcelona in March but had to skip due to illness.
- Longest runs in April 2x13 miles. Struggled. (Probably could have walked faster....)
- Recent race: Hilly HM in Feb, finish time 2:09
What do I want? Well first thing is to run faster. I want to be able to run sub 4:30 in Helsinki 18th of August. I also have signed up for Loch Ness marathon 30th Sept which I will go for enjoyment only.
Second is to have a plan that is structured and do-able even if I have a busy life style.
All intermediate training plans I've looked at that look do-able contain no speed training, which I would think in my case would be the key. I could make my own.... but I'm totally crap at sticking to it unless I have it structured in black on white. I haven't got enough experience to make my own speed training sessions anyway, I'm not motivated to do it and I don't trust myself that I will keep up to it if it's "my own plan".
All advanced plans go over 5-6 days a week which to me is impossible to fit in.
Its all too familiar to me to take on a plan that I'm not able to stick to, having to skip runs, get annoyed with myself and then lose my focus and interest, change the plan half way... once... twice... fall back to the inconsistency.
FIRST 3 days a week plan seems OK and I've used that once before for my first marathon, but I fear its not enough. I suppose I could throw in an easy 5 miler here and there... but because its 18 week plan (and from Monday 30th I have 16 weeks left) and I've had a bit of a lay off due to loss of interest and physical exhaustion, I find that the LSR mileage increases too quick for me.
I'm running Leeds HM in two weeks. I'll be able to do the distance although I might suffer a little.
I have entered to couple of races during the summer, 2x10k and 1x 10 miler.
I have two jobs so I struggle to fit in any more runs than 4 days a week.
I would like to add some cross training too because I've found in the past it's helped me a lot. But that would most definitely mean, no more than 4 days of running.
I sometimes wonder if it's my life that is difficult, or is it my attitude.