Dear fellow runner
i have been thinking about things, i do not have very much time to my self - I race with Phillip at all available times at weekends and midweek when possible during summer
For nearly the last 20 years i have devoted everything, all my energy to my son Phillip, and for nearly the last 6 years have taken him on just about every race i've done - though there's no regrets
My wife's disability also can take up much time,
people ask me, " Mick, do you get any ME TIME ", i don't get much no, i'm almost 50, i feel good, but i need some time for myself
i get little if any real training in during the week - so, i have embarked on hopefully a new programme of RELAXING training and running, NO speed work involved really, just to jog, plod, feel the breeze, spread my wings etc - if it's heavy rain , that'll be nice and refreshing, if it's hot, that'll be stamina running,
i am very busy,so i will try hard to fit this in when i can
different routes, different distances, if i cannot manage an hour, then i'll do 30 or 40 mins etc, if i only get 20 minutes then it's better than nout
i really do feel i deserve it , i've given my disabled wife and son my very all, i really need a little air to breath for myself
so, i'll try and post each training session i do,
How far i ran, or how long i ran for - and how i feel
Many of you i know are experienced runners, some maybe more experienced than myself - some are newbies or new- ish, so i hope it helps inspire you
but i will NOT even be attempting to returning to any of my 100 plus miles a week that i used to do years ago
and this will not be about seeing how fast i can get around a certain distance
This is going to be purely fun, feel good, my ME time !!!!!!
I am actually going to treat this to start with as if i'm a newby myself
Comments
After Phillip had gone to day centre, and i made sure my wife was ok -
I went out gently for about 33 minutes, on one of my old routes, i probably ran about 4 miles - it was quite breezy, i felt very refreshed, i was feeling very tight in my calf's and thighs
i just relaxed, and thought about the old days - i felt good,
Mick, good to see you're getting some 'me' time.
Mick you slacker!
Just cos Phil isn't there to "push" you doesn't mean you can ponce about base training.
Put some effort in Man!
Great to hear you got out..
Sorry posted reply on wrong thread!
Thanks! )
If ANYONE deserves "me time" it's you, Mick.
If I could, I'd send you some of mine - I value it, but probably waste too much of it.
Enjoy!
Tuesday 4 March
Phillip's in respite for disabled this week - Mon - Fri,
But I Went out as normal on my letter box distrubution this morning at 6 am, but instead carried on until 8.50, delivering and doing speed walking and jogging it between gaps in streets and houses
Normally, i would return home at 7.30, to help Mrs Mick with Phillip to get him ready for day centre, but as he's away, i carried on and let her sleep - then i would have returned back to distribution for an hour
i had a good time, it was icey cold and refreshing, i saw 2 joggers while i was out, and everyone buzzing around going to school and work
I enjoyed it emmencely
I do so hope all of you fellow runners are ok
It's been a piss me off day
just got no moitivation at all, i slept very heavy last night
went out on letter box distribution and did 1.75 hours of speed walking and jogging in between
other wise, just might not have gone out at all
Hi all
It's been a pretty good day overall, i slept very well last night - went out this morning on letter box distribution at about 8.40, and paced around until about 12 .20, it's quite amazing walking and jogging around all the streets, just how far you can actually go
been for a nice 4 course meal with my wife, and Phillip's home tomorrow evening
so, all's well really
Hi fellow runners
well, I had a good night sleep, good breakfast, after i knew Mrs Mick was ok, i went off out on my letter box distribution this morning for 2 hours , speed walking and jogging in-between - pretty pleasant breeze really, just nice and refreshing
been for a nice pub snack tonight, and of course little Phillip is back home tonight, - the nurse said when he got bought home by day centre staff, and he came to the door, his face was a picture of pure delight
he's now happily tucked up in bed
i'm lurking here and there seeing what your all up to
not really feel like posting much
mick
But nice to see you here Mick.
Enjoy your ME time.xx
After bad legal news this morning, i took my wife on her elecrtic scooterfor a nature walk this afternoon
we had fun, enjoyed it
tomorrow Ashby 20
Went to Ashby 20 tough hilly- ish mile race today clocked a slow 3.26, but then that happens
would never have missed it for the world, it was simply a magic day
Phillip felt very heavy on hills at 18.5 - 19.5 , so had to walk a little, but that won't take away the pure magic day we had
WE can be so very proud of what we did and we are proud
it was great meeting people , made our whole day
Thankyou all so much
Mick n phil xx
How my heart aches, and i wish for some peace, my whole heart and soul aches, Running is just like medication , its a temporary drug, it's not a final solution or cure
very few people understand unfortunately-
I've tried so hard in life, given my all, have never ever left them, ( my wife and Phil ) There is always emergency information on the wheelchair - i so hope one day out on the racing curcuit that i finally lay myself to rest
like many other mum's and dad's in my position here near home, we selfishly wish and hope that we out live our siblings - that way we will be able to at least die in some dignity and peace
if i was a drunk, or what ever, and over night, said ok, lets do this or that - yes, it would be so very WRONG as some have pointed out
but my actions are NOT controlled by alcohol, my actions are not an over night thought from desperation of hate , anger and temper
this is a final ultimatum of not days, not weeks or months , but years of thinking out EVERY angle, the possible consequences of what to do - both with my local authority revenge, and with FLM saga
There are certain things in life i strongly believe that if NECCESSARY, if i'm pushed then 2 wrongs will or do make a right
FLM, well, it's just a case of me being a silly bugga, and if i fail on the day, i'll return home Happy and truimphant knowing i gave my all , regardless of whether or not people agree with me, i can then live in some peace on the FLM saga, course if i do get somewhere in London, then it will be delighful
My battle and REVENGE for the system locally, i'm very much afraid, few understand, when you set out your stall in life, you make your desicions and you stick to them, come HELL or high water
Will my wife pass on first, and leave me and Phil or will i pass on first , who know's- i fully expect to awake one day and find my wife gone from heart problems, i suprised it's not happened already
Many of you think i'm silly and all the etc, that go with it, i respect and understand that, simply because many have absolutely NO idea how they'd re-act if put in my situation
so, FLM is just around the corner - this is it you might say, - i'm ready for anything, lets face it, what more can be thrown at me than what i've already endured
All of you have given us much pleasure, and laughter, so much so, you'll never ever know - you've all been a delight to know- it's just so unfortunate that you've come across some like me,
i as most know, am an honest open chap, but pushed over the line, i become something very different, i was already a broken man when we met, i 've waited this long quite perposely for my Phillip to become 19 , an adult and off the SSD childrens team
What do you mean Mick , you ask " i live by the sword, I'll die by it if neccessary "
I've gone to far now to turn back !!!!!!!!!
I will NOT be trying again to explain further, if this post just isn't understood, then fair enough, but from an HONEST man and LAW abiding until now
My sincere love to you all - Bless you all and your families
Mick xxx
Am I thinking that you are talking about running here Mick, I doubt that I am reading anything really sinister. If you are thinking what I am thinking then I can't think what LAW old beardy might be studying.
Health and Safety at Work Act? Emphasis on Work. People get thumped in boxing - but that's sport, not work. Don't hit the Referee though, he IS at work.
Have just been out and done a training run on my own for once - Mrs Mick has gone into town on her electric scooter, so, i thought, well- i'm taking Phillip to the track tonight with Stratford AC for an hour, so how about i have some ME time ahh
so i set off , quietly, NOTHING flash, or speedy, just wanted to relax and play and feel good again, i did about 4 miles on one of my local training loops in around 33 mins -
I am now gushing in sweat but feel good
Tonight i went without Phillip to the club - and i went with the experienced group - we ran for about 1 hour 15
it was pure heaven, it was a hard run, thirsty hot and humid, it was tranquil, relaxing, so so enjoyable, most perfect in every way you can think of
i cannot think of the last time i had such an enjoyable run with fellow runners on my own
it's made me feel so real good again - i don't have much ME time, but it did me the world