I’ll sing myself to sleep A song from the darkest hour Secrets I can’t keep Inside of the day Swing from high to deep Extremes of sweet and sour Hope that God exists I hope I pray
Drawn by the undertow My life is out of control I believe this wave will bear my weight So let it flow
Oh sit down Sit down next to me Sit down, down, down, down, down In sympathy
Now I’m relieved to hear That you’ve been to some far out places It’s hard to carry on When you feel all alone Now I’ve swung back down again It’s worse than it was before If I hadn’t seen such riches I could live with being poor Oh sit down Sit down next to me Sit down, down, down, down, down In sympathy
Those who feel the breath of sadness Sit down next to me Those who find they’re touched by madness Sit down next to me Those who find themselves ridiculous Sit down next to me Love, in fear, in hate, in tears
Down Down
Oh sit down Sit down next to me Sit down, down, down, down, down In sympathy
Oh sit down Sit down next to me Sit down, down, down, down, down In sympathy
And you've got to let go of the 'making excuses' thing. Your depression's very real and has real causes to which you react in a normal way. As I see it, you need to get a proper understanding of the problems before you can do anything about them (beyond munching pills, anyway). Trust me, I'm an official nutter!
Slept better last night, not really surprising, but a good 7 hours. Woke once, turned over and woke again with the alarm in exactly the same position.
Because of the sleep, I feel a lot easier than yesterday, but still a little brittle. Lots to do today, including first contacts with some people which I always find a bit hard.
Home life still a bit tense, but there are periods of relief. Just need the kids to *think* for a few days, but they've got a big treat tomorrow so that might help.
the day is going downhill. some conversation in the formums has got me wound and down, which is a pain cos I'd been having an effective day up till then. Now just feel like going somewhere else (no not home)...
a lot of my depression is caused by me bottling things up and not letting go of things. Then you brood on it. then you feel guilty about brooding and start feeling bad about something which starts off as minor (almost petty in some cases) and we all go round again.
I'm tired again, not surprising ne night doesn't make up for a week, any more than a couple of months sleep will make up for 5 years or more.
I need to do some solid thinking this weekend, and I need to talk some things out, for better or worse, but things have to move on.
ladies, its the normal group on Plodders and I got wound up by the conversation. No ones fault, it was jsut the conversation got to me, probably it felt close to home and it just upset that other people find the similar things in their lives as well.
Hi staggers. I haven't been on here much recently but sounds as if your having a bad couple of days. Really sorry to hear that. Hold on to the fact that good days happen in between. And don't totally dismiss therapy. Sometimes it's a case of finding someone who is good for YOU. It's a relationship thing too. Wish I could help but all I can do is say I'm thinking of you and send some hugs.....
Had a duff afternoon today. Had to do the ironing to feel useful, it just made me feel like I was contributing.
Good day yesterday, but cold and tired by the end. Slept ok (about 8 hours) but awake at 6 this morning. Just been very up tight all day, short of patience with the kids and breathless (i.e. tense). Did do 30 mins in the exercise bike on a heart training session, which is good but didn't want to go running, a bit of not wanting to be seen.
Will hopefully sleep ok tonight as I've calmed down a bit.
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ALBUM · James (1990)
I’ll sing myself to sleep
A song from the darkest hour
Secrets I can’t keep
Inside of the day
Swing from high to deep
Extremes of sweet and sour
Hope that God exists
I hope I pray
Drawn by the undertow
My life is out of control
I believe this wave will bear my weight
So let it flow
Oh sit down
Sit down next to me
Sit down, down, down, down, down
In sympathy
Now I’m relieved to hear
That you’ve been to some far out places
It’s hard to carry on
When you feel all alone
Now I’ve swung back down again
It’s worse than it was before
If I hadn’t seen such riches
I could live with being poor
Oh sit down
Sit down next to me
Sit down, down, down, down, down
In sympathy
Those who feel the breath of sadness
Sit down next to me
Those who find they’re touched by madness
Sit down next to me
Those who find themselves ridiculous
Sit down next to me
Love, in fear, in hate, in tears
Down
Down
Oh sit down
Sit down next to me
Sit down, down, down, down, down
In sympathy
Oh sit down
Sit down next to me
Sit down, down, down, down, down
In sympathy
Down
Go and see that doctor
go see the doc
sweet things sometimes help in the night - tea and biscs &c
you're having a horrid time, you need to be very very kind to yourself. It will come to an end, and there will be more good times.
(((Staggs)))
Possibly stubborn, but need to get some thoughts in order before adventuring back in to therapy land.......
the therapy is to help you get your thoughts in order.
To do it the way round you suggest is like hiring a cleaner but cleaning the house before she comes because you don't want her to see it in a mess!
You arent really coping with this on your own at the mo are you
Yes
Sort of
At times
There are some good days, its bad today because I'm tired.
not a personal comment but its partly how I feel about therapy/analysis.
I'll see what my GP says about it, promise.
(((((((((((((Staggers)))))))))))))))
And you've got to let go of the 'making excuses' thing. Your depression's very real and has real causes to which you react in a normal way. As I see it, you need to get a proper understanding of the problems before you can do anything about them (beyond munching pills, anyway). Trust me, I'm an official nutter!
All the best with it, and keep that mind open.
Because of the sleep, I feel a lot easier than yesterday, but still a little brittle. Lots to do today, including first contacts with some people which I always find a bit hard.
Home life still a bit tense, but there are periods of relief. Just need the kids to *think* for a few days, but they've got a big treat tomorrow so that might help.
I'm tired again, not surprising ne night doesn't make up for a week, any more than a couple of months sleep will make up for 5 years or more.
I need to do some solid thinking this weekend, and I need to talk some things out, for better or worse, but things have to move on.
which threads?
Hope all goes well with the Gp on tuesady
Didn't know about those convos - and here's me wittering about balloons an sugar.
Have another ((((((((hug))))))) and i hope tomorrow is better...
its us sensitive souls :-)
Gill
Good day yesterday, but cold and tired by the end. Slept ok (about 8 hours) but awake at 6 this morning. Just been very up tight all day, short of patience with the kids and breathless (i.e. tense). Did do 30 mins in the exercise bike on a heart training session, which is good but didn't want to go running, a bit of not wanting to be seen.
Will hopefully sleep ok tonight as I've calmed down a bit.
very brief conversation along lines of
"I know I'm going to get better, but its bloody awful at times at the moment and there'll be more of that before the end."
"I know, but we'll get through it"