I've been mulling this over for days now whether to say anything or not. As you know I recently got to 2 years and seemed to be cancer free.
Guys, I've discovered a lumpiness in the other breast. About 6 months ago the oncologist looked at me and decided there was some thickening but decided it wasn't anything to worry about. It's bigger and it feels exactly like the other side felt except it isn't a discrete round lump like the other one was. I feels like it could be an enlarged gland - but I'm not sure whether it's a breast gland or a lymph gland. Either way it's a good job I have an oncology appointment on Thursday.
(sigh)
The thing which really really pi$$es me off about this is that I have NEVER in all the last two years - had a fcuking break from this thing and it's still fcuking chasing me.
I'm a little fed up about it. I've spoken to a couple of friends who have really kicked my arse in the last day or two but I can't help how I feel. I really wish it would fcuking stop now.
I had a really sh!te time of it. Really do not want to go there again. I stand by what I previously said, if it does come back, I'm not going through all this again.
CDK -- I have no intention of going anywhere just yet. I have every right and every bloody intention of staying right where I am. I'm just bloody annoyed that yet again, I don't get to carry on as normal.
BB -- it's okay. Thanks.
Hoover & hippo -- I know. It probably isn't. You're probably right. But I'll tell you something. I am NOT going through all that again - because I will know that there is no point in it. I don't do things twice - I do them properly the first time or not at all. I did it properly the first time and I know it. So we'll see what Thursday brings.
However, until then I will not be sitting worrying about it again because I'm sick of it. I'm just so bloody annoyed that I have to do this bloody waiting thing again.
Nessie - surprisingly, THIS is the least of my problems right now.
Thanks you guys. I see Dr Clark at 5.30pm tomorrow. When I spoke to him last week he realised what a worry this is so he is expecting some hard questions from me. Of course, I've been through this so regularly now, we know that I won't get a definitive outcome tomorrow. I will get examined and scanned and prodded and poked as usual and bloods taken etc etc etc blah blah bloody blah. It will be next week that the outcome will be obvious.
But be assured. Even if things don't go my way - this bloody thing does not have me beat. With every cell in my being and breath in my body that I have, I will kick this thing again and again.
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That is lovely news and you could not deserve it more. Enjoy it
xxxx
brilliant news Cath ..happy 2nd anniversary
thankies
))))))
happy non-cancer birthday
but don`t start gettin cocky by pinchin 00`s
;o)
So good to hear a positive outcome to a cancer story.
err... just to put everyone in the picture...
I've been mulling this over for days now whether to say anything or not. As you know I recently got to 2 years and seemed to be cancer free.
Guys, I've discovered a lumpiness in the other breast. About 6 months ago the oncologist looked at me and decided there was some thickening but decided it wasn't anything to worry about. It's bigger and it feels exactly like the other side felt except it isn't a discrete round lump like the other one was. I feels like it could be an enlarged gland - but I'm not sure whether it's a breast gland or a lymph gland. Either way it's a good job I have an oncology appointment on Thursday.
(sigh)
The thing which really really pi$$es me off about this is that I have NEVER in all the last two years - had a fcuking break from this thing and it's still fcuking chasing me.
I'm a little fed up about it. I've spoken to a couple of friends who have really kicked my arse in the last day or two but I can't help how I feel. I really wish it would fcuking stop now.
(sigh) again.
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ugh, I just been reading some of this stuff back.
I had a really sh!te time of it. Really do not want to go there again. I stand by what I previously said, if it does come back, I'm not going through all this again.
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no words - just hugs
Stay with us
however---we dont know its anything to worry about ---not yet
one day at a time
I know - just feels a bit unfair is all really
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Sorry can't think of any words
((( Cath )))
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BB -- it's okay. Thanks.
Hoover & hippo -- I know. It probably isn't. You're probably right. But I'll tell you something. I am NOT going through all that again - because I will know that there is no point in it. I don't do things twice - I do them properly the first time or not at all. I did it properly the first time and I know it. So we'll see what Thursday brings.
However, until then I will not be sitting worrying about it again because I'm sick of it. I'm just so bloody annoyed that I have to do this bloody waiting thing again.
So damn annoying.
Course it's not feckin' fair :O(
GRR!
Sorry to hear something has cropped up for you to have to worry about, and I really hope it's nothing significant. You deserve some luck.
Lorna
xxx
wishing you good news on thursday
i've got everything crossed for you, for thursday
you deserve some good luck
love
sam x
Why does shit happen to the nicest peeps?
Fingers crossed for Thursday.
Jeanne XX
Nessie - surprisingly, THIS is the least of my problems right now.
Thanks you guys. I see Dr Clark at 5.30pm tomorrow. When I spoke to him last week he realised what a worry this is so he is expecting some hard questions from me. Of course, I've been through this so regularly now, we know that I won't get a definitive outcome tomorrow. I will get examined and scanned and prodded and poked as usual and bloods taken etc etc etc blah blah bloody blah. It will be next week that the outcome will be obvious.
But be assured. Even if things don't go my way - this bloody thing does not have me beat. With every cell in my being and breath in my body that I have, I will kick this thing again and again.